Distraught; its a good vocab word

i found the perfect jeep. i mean everything was perfect. but its not good enough for my family. so i go look today and cant afford the one i want. i seriously am out of ideas. i am tired of trying to make every one happy. im sooo tired. everything hurts. why cant I just be happy. isnt that important to anyone? no?...yeah i shouldve known that. *sigh*on a lighter note im glad B is coming home. im so fucking excited to see him. i need a break from all this serious shit. and i know if anyone can make me laugh like im crazy and help me relax he can. Im so glad we're talking. everything was just so downhill after that. i feel like im falling sometime. noones gonna catch me either

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mehhh i so tired. i have to work a shit ton this week too. but its a pretty easy peasy job which is nice :) well i guess thats all for now.