Things aren't always what they seem, Sometimes they're worse.

You're gone. I forced you to speak to me but it doesnt make losing you any easier. I miss you every day. I think about you and me and i am sorry. I told you awhile ago that i was a bad person and you didn't believe me. but i told you. i guess its too late for me to do anything now. shit sucks but oh well. i hope you're well. i keep notes in my phone and it seems like i can write more then ever lately. i notice the negative in the world and i want to change it so bad. i start school january 10th. i can't believe that i can actually have a future...but i never know what can happen. im overwhelmed. i just got my schedule for work this moth. i work 6 days a week open to close. fuckkk. idk what else to write. i love you. teddybear.......