So many thoughts and not enough time to think about them all.

Its been a wierd month. i dont know what i want anymore. All i know is that i dont like where and who i live with. i don't like not having my license yet. i can go get it any time but my father has yet to lend me his car. Every day all i want to do is just drive. I dont know where i want to go but i want to drive. I miss having a life. I used to be out with friends all the time and when it hit sophmore year everything stopped. Now that chelseas gone my workload is doubled. its ridiculous. i think im going to die from stress. and being so tired. im always tired. whyyyy.

im happy for chelsea though. shes in a really great relationship and im really happy hes a good guy :) i need a good guy. but i dont want a relationship. i dont know anymoreee....fuckkk.

boys suck.