as time moves on everything shall fade

everything is slowly coming together again. I feel like a whole person. I didn't want to start anything with this guy I mean it was a setup date so really? but he's nice and funny and clever.

I know if you read this there's a chance you'll be hurt,pissed, possibly a little irritated. but I told you that I can't fall to pieces anymore. Do I think about you daily? yes. Do I miss you and wish we could talk without weirdness? definitely.
but I'm not sure you're ready to talk, let alone think about me. I understand. I love you but it was so hard. 700 miles is a long distance to have trust. I've fucked up bad in the past so I understand your trust issues. it's okay now. I just want you to still be friends with me. losing you would suck but if it happens it happens. I just hope life is good to you.

okay so new topic. I'm 19 tomorrow. it's such a useless age. it's like the government is like haha fuck you cuz ya can't do shit! well government you can take it in the ass :) I do what I please motherfucker. I drink my drinks and whether it be legal or not idgaf! cuz after work if I can't have a rum and coke or a beer though it's not my favorite, I might shoot up the place.
yeah fuck you :)

I feel like a whole person lately. it's nice. I mean I actually want to get out of bed in the morning and do stuff. I'm happy and I'm smiling. I lost love ive gained new friends and life hasn't kicked me in the face saying haha you suck lately. I can deal with that :)

job hunting is commencing today.
if I work much longer at sake house I'll blow my brains out.
just saying.

k well that's all for now :)

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