College? no ima gonna be a strippa!

wellll shitttt. taking a semester off is becoming a possibility. i didnt want it to be but fuck it might have to be. its not terrible. but its not good. i need to move out fursure. or else saving money wont happen. i miss him....terribly. i hope hes ok. sorry teddybear...i love you and im always thinking about you.

im sick of the life im living. im sick of me. im sick of who ive become. i dont know me anymore. im angry all the time and im constantly thinking of bill payments. what the fuck i wanna be happy goddamnit. kjsadhfklash glkshgkjfgh;asgh

exactly.

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Your words, they're poison in my veins

My eyes are dry. I can't cry anymore. I'm pretty sure I've lost my Best Friend over something that's been making me happy. But i guess it doesn't matter if I'M happy. noooo as long as your happy right. as long as I'm there for you for the rest of my life. I don't think ill be going to see you anytime soon considering you probably wanna rip my eyes out. I don't wanna lose you...oh not at all. But the way you words things make me feel minuscule and like i deserve to be on a corner working for a man named Big Jay. Please don't ever talk to me like that. I may put up with it for now but if you think ill keep lettin you go with this shit you're oh so wrong sir. You're my teddy bear and i love you. Always have always will. But i will seriously give you a piece of my mind if you fucking talk to me like that ever again. I try to be open with you, to show you i respect you and you ask me if we're fucking? are you FUCKING KIDDING ME? if you were within arms reach i might have slapped you. Then again i was almost in tears when you texted it to me. i just don't know anymore. i'm not sure whats up or down.