You Annoy Me...and then some

There are so many things about you i wish i could change...like the fact that you can talk. i dont like you. you anger me to the point where i just can't take it anymore. and you are soo annoying. Stop freaking out about the littlest things...i heard you the first time you told me to wash dishes but maybe i was doing something that was a little important dont you think? Stop thinkin about yourself for one second. oh and go get a job.Honestly you annoy me to the point where i wanna shoot myself in the head and when im almost dead and gone ill take you with me.I am not a dog...do not treat me as one. you do not own me...i am not your slave...you can hit me all you want but that will not change a thing..It will only increase the feelings i have written down.

I was talking to a friend earlier and i told him i felt like i was missing something.But maybe its not what im missing...but what im lacking...im lacking my sense of freedom...i can't have any adventures cuz im never allowed out...so maybe if i get my license in april itll be the best thing to happen...i could leave. i could explore everything. maybe thats what i need...Maybe i need love that won't go wrong. Just re-reading that i feel like i know now. i feel like thats what i need. I gave up on love...but i think my friend is right when he said to keep looking.

I'm happy with the choices i've made as of late. I feel like sooner or later everything is going to be ok. I have friends that love me and I them and ill be leaving soon..so everything is looking up...i shouldn't be so negative. I mean yes i get pretty angry as you can read from the first paragraph...but i also need to see both sides of life...My sister,no matter how much we've been screaming our asses off at each other, will always be there for me...and that itself is the most amazing thing to me.

I think I'm done.I feel a little better after all of this....